So earlier today, I went through an emotional state of rage and ranted about some stuff. I just wanna apologize for causing any concern because I did mention my "mere thoughts of suicide", but in all honesty, I'm okay. To be honest, I wouldn't have the balls to do it. I could never leave my girlfriend behind or my friends and especially my family. I feel those thoughts come to mind practically whenever I feel like a huge piece of shit and that's usually when I reflect on my failures and am being screamed at by my paps all at once. I guess when I feel I'm thinking clearly, I'm really not. And that's something that needs to be worked on. As for the loans, I know I'm not the only one who's going through this but it's the fact that I can't seem to handle the situation as well as others and that becomes frustrating for me sometimes. Deep deep down inside, I know things will lighten up. So that's that and I guess I'll catch you guys lata.